ahaa

2006-08-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

You're left with no more path
No more costume wear nor a mask to hide.
Then that's it.
Con't hiding ! With life! Esp!
I have enough.
Bitch tends to be itchy with their words. This won't miss me out. hur? Dangerous. ARGH. You never never never never never never never never NEVER. NVM. lol. What a cheap world can this be. No more praises. Yucks! Totally irritated!!!!!!

2006-08-01T00:24:00.000+08:00

High School Musical- Breaking free

I know the coming of august is the best season of the year. The fact that, God delieved me into this world, on this beautiful month in the autumn (: My birthday month! *hint* I sensed some clearing of misunderstandings in the air, I predicted a better tomorrow. Will life be ever peaceful? No, I don't want to think any further. Being regretful isn't the correct issue to handle, just live on, probably with guilt. At least, it was a very beautiful mistake.

This saturday, hopefully.

I enjoyed every part of my saturday night. Everything was so pleasant. It puts me with a smile, on my bed, every night!

2006-07-30T20:13:00.000+08:00

High School Musical- When there was me and you

I'm sorry for the situation that you're cope in. Numbness, fear, endless thoughts of how the consequences of the situations that we're handling. I dunno. I just hope it was not a mistake. Don't make it one at least.
High school musical is nice.
So is a dream in reality.
A dream indeed.
Sweet one.
Girls are nothing but trouble. Agreed. (=
Darling, i don't think i can afford to lose you. Boo. I don't wanna leave you either. Uhmm ....
The dream was really nice. Sweared.
Tell me it was true from the bottom from yr heart. Take back yr words, dun be sorry. Uhmm ...
It's just like the first time you received a lollipop
very sweet (:

2006-07-30T15:09:00.000+08:00

High School Muscial- What I've been looking for

I tasted the sweetness of victory.
I won? Maybe half.
I am really glad.
Feeling contented.
Beautiful.
Felt like i was right in paradise.
But it wasn't a dream. It was real (:
Don't let me sink into a pool of insecurity.
Now i'm scared. Shld i?
Baby, i can't afford but pls contiune to lead me with blessings.
Oh my god, did it really happen?
How i watched my dream, slowly patched up
& fulfilling before my eyes...
Was it really you?

Caution: Somone's tagboard just murdered me. I feel like a complete fool last night. ARRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !! I cannot take this.
Explanation please =\

2006-07-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

The veronicas- When It All Falls Apart

HAHA
Being in the second last position in the entire PJC cohort, is cool. Complete genius, out of 850 students. I don't care, it's not counted, i only took GP for the entire midyear.
i watched "Nacho Libre"
& i'm eating fish and co. tmr

2006-07-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

Low Millions- Eleanor

Fine, I understand, okay with me, if that's the plan. You can take the stereo, the TV and the video, the bed the sheets and pillows, before you go. But for now, unlock the door, what are we doin' all this for? Let me make you dinner one last time, then you'll go your way, and I'll go mine.
You left your smell, you left your taste, you left me here with my mistakes. And I can't relate to what you say I've done, but just for you, I'll bite my tongue.
Eleanor I miss you, Eleanor be well, Eleanor I wish you'd release me from your spell.
And I won't call you baby, anymore, won't call you baby, like I did before, won't call you baby, anymore, Eleanor.

Loooooong crappy entry.

- Teenage life/ Growing up/ Naggy parents/ Fights & Arguments/ Pimples/ Menstruation/ Puberty/ Weird syndromes/ Movies/ Music/ Clubbing/ Food + Chocolate

being a teen...

- Johnny Depp/ Orlando Bloom/ Channing Tatum/ Teddy geiger/ Travis/ HeJunXiang/ ZhengYuanChang/ KwonSangWoo !!

Being just Jacqueline...

- Wrong signs/ Liar/ Flirt/ Bitch Bitch Bitch/ Hates pink/ I need money/ who i am hates who i've been.

Q&A
[Milk, anyone? Will my breasts grow and not be accused as washing board .. if i drink 10 tonnes of it ?]
[No. Jacq will be one, forever .. ]

My eyes are so tired. I hardly cant open em. I got a cure remedy, putting freezed-metal-spoons on em, will probably try it ltr! Spoons r still in the cooler! It better work. My biological clock is greatly upset, so is my menstral cycle. It comes irregularly, accompanied with low amt of power recharge, i feel very weak on weekdays. Don't ask me out! Lemme sleep well in my coffin on weekends. Lemme continue whining. (I just told a friend- follow my quote, life is a miracle) Yes, indeed. You learned smth new and i'm really gettin cranky up there these days. The sixth sense and some incidents of meeting my imaginery friends. Barbie is my friend, so is Baby. Haha! I'm getting paranoid, no longer holding the usual self. Self degrading with low self-esteem. I've lost myself in the crowd. I love complaining, i wanna catch some smile attention out there. I made the top ten commandments my bf need to do. (Now, who will be willing to be ? Haha!) I want a hug. I had one form annabel on Sunday (: Don't take things casually. Sigh, being serious is not my thing. You gotta try everything, for, you nv know how things will end up to be. Yr life is controlled by yrself. Don't let fear comes in. Deception from devil. Sheesh~
Signs of Ageing, Jacqueline is ..
I learnt too much about foundations. I think too much outside the box, during the proper lessons in schools. Will people still link as friends, if the phone calls stop coming in? Will friendship contiunes if contact is lost in the next ten yrs? My question: Are we trying to hard to pretend that we're friends? Looking back, I regret alot, because of the fear of the coming future. Now, i must learn not to. I want what i yearn, i grab, steal, cheat .. all my ways through. Haha! Do you still like me ? (:

2006-07-23T13:58:00.000+08:00

Snow Patrol- Open yr Eyes

Random.

Lemme bitch.

I hate to see girls kissing one another, when deep down within their evil hearts, they never agreed to 'lesbians' in their world. Well, i've to admit that i do have a close lesbian pal and we hate to see people acting as lesbians. These horrible pple are just having plain fun and digging the sorrow out of the real homosexuals. They are the one who will start pointing fingers at the lesbians. C'mon act like what yr brains cells taught you to. Don't try to pretend.

Isn't cooler not to act?
Rich but ugly
Rich, pretty BUT bimbotic with nasty character & shallow mindset
lucky i'm poor! ugly and ... nvm!
There's too much ugly people with no brains, cause they nv know the importance of dressing up in the public. Lemme divert for a moment. What's with the MUD/MAH at esplanade, a place where it's supposed to be filled by an aura of 'art' .. feelings? NVM! i'm still a racist, pardon me! & I fell down at cafe cartel yesterday @?##$$%@@%^#%^@#@ and there was only one ULTRA goodlooking guy i saw, only one. one. O-N-E. lucky he's miss goh's friend. I will grab him after my A's. silent laugh.
The world is too black.
back to doing ART.

2006-07-21T13:47:00.000+08:00

Red Hot Chilli Pepper- Scar Tissue

My mom's legs are thinner than mine! She's taller. i'm getting fatter?
A week of playing 'hide and seek'. A week of intensive class bonding session. Everyday without fail, i hanged out in various weird places with my clsmates. One normal monday in town, watching pirates, next moment in bukit timah, eating away Island Creamery's icecream. Yummy! We cld spent the day, searching christian names for jieying&kaixin (monica&gin). On Wed, we went to a geography talk, with all other diff JCs in NJC. Proven evidence- there's not goodlooking guys taking geog, but alot of VJC pretty girls. Yest, eight of us went over to jieying's secretly and caught her sleeping in most unglam manner. the sick and heartbroken girl. muacks. i love you? The stayover at her place, gave me a bad headache today. Lucky mummy came to fetch me, & now i'm gonna enjoy a good afternoon nap. awww .... friday/saturday/sunday [Homework :( ]
We took class photo just now, it woke me to sense, telling me that my college life is ending. Has been updating our own testimonials. i've no contribution towards this damn sch. TWO years! since secondary sch yrs. i've start missing everyone. 05A06 has five hundred photos in our imagestation.

Memories will contiune to linger like a stain
I dont' wanna hurt anyone, including myself.

2006-07-16T21:34:00.000+08:00

Rooftop- by Lost prophets

Vulnerable lives ; Dispoable tears
geeks.

Been packing my schedule with work & sufficient company of entainment & friends. Burning of midnight oil to study, are unavoidable. Efforts are paid off, the satisfactory weekend stayover was awesome. Manage to lock myself in a world between me & jieying's 91 inch of LCD screen. Pirates of Carribean 1/ Failure to launch/ Several episodes of Meteor garden! Classic! The beginning of Taiwan idol dramas. Self-cooked destructive instant meals & Ben&Jerry's, with midnight Mcdonalda delievery & ENDLESS session of MAHJONG! and the girls don't like HeJunXiang, i'm gonna cut ties with em. 50++ days to A'level Art coursework submission. 120++ days to the rest of A'level. OOhs, another busy week again.

i'm really busy
dont' lie.

NTSS girls (bel, vanessa, px, yuenyun .. whoever tt wants to come!) can we meet for dinner over the the new tiong bahru mkt ? perhaps the COMING fri/sat/sun night ? i'm organising this so please! please! sms me when & time that u guys r free. don't bother replying at my tagboard, i may be too busy this week, okay ? =D *awaiting for yr reply, make it quick.

2006-07-14T01:10:00.000+08:00

3 doors down- Be like that

i enjoyed rollarcoaster rides. yet i detest to watch my mood swing btw two points of extremes. nah. the world isn't that round after all.

-i dun like funeral. i like the birth of newborn babies
-i prefer white to black colour
-i prefer live music then recorded tracks
-i will choose water over blood
-i will smile & show my teeth more often than tearing

NEGATIVE. no no.
promise made today: i shall not skip school for @#%#%& any-o-how reasons, till A lvl ends.
(even if the weather is too fine for me to contiune sleeping, i'm now deprived of sleep!)

buy me a diary.
buy me heels.
get me some dimsum bao to shut my mouth from ranting.

till then, by brillant girl (:

2006-07-13T02:00:00.000+08:00

A W A K E N

If men are tailor-made
If heel aren't that hard
If men give birth
If diamonds are grown from trees

then..

- I'll be able to get the perfect man. uhmm.. pretty artificial (cancel this!)

- I can run after the bus on heels, i can shop all day without pain! yeah!

- Mensus will not come. No stain. Clean, Clean, Clean (:

- I'll be a farmer, growing trees, probably wearing diamond trees on myself. Tiffany& Co ... aww ...

See ? Why drown myself in sorrow ? I will only sink deeper & probably not be able to recover, SO i must wake up and start fighting for life, for myself, for everyone who still cares about me. I shldn't let anyone down, right ? No man, no love, no luck ... so ? I have myself, my friends plus a God who's just testing my faith. He's really testing me, i wun walk away even if my God thinks i'm a nuisance. Too bad, i choose to believe in Him. Bleahs! God, You cant shake Jacqueline off, You chose to create her !MUAHAHA!

Then again, we cannot give in to fate/destiny or watever, fight fight. Tired? Then go into coffin & sleep loh. I'm not dumb. My grandma wun wanna see me in a despired manner. She entrusted my mummy, her beautiful daughter to me, i have to be responsible (= I will do a good job. STUDY, never say die! If i quit, my life will be gone. I'm gonna create another new world for myself (x HAHA! women suffers, do men too ? i don't care. There's only gonna be one prince charming, i've enough with the search, let HIM come to me. He will find me, one day =D =D

positive thinking makes a woman turn pretty! - - - my theory ! true la! lesser winkles & lighter eyebags (x
i miss grandma alot! i'm gonna live for her!

2006-07-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

Hey pals,
is this a season of "lose yr love ones period" ?
My friend's dad just passed away,
uncle even went to my grandma's wake and paid respect.
Leaving behind his wife and 3 young children.
Did God turn away his eyes from us ??
I guess He did.

Cldn't even make myself to finish stories, back in school.
Agitated/ annoyed/ frustrated .....
I think i'm destined to be Single Ugly & Desperate !!!!! ARGH !!!

God snatched everything, almost everything from me ... bah ... bah ... cheebye
busy life, A level art, A level ... i need tuition for ECONS !
i only scored 10/75 [[complete genius]]
I'm facing big stress

2006-07-10T00:36:00.000+08:00

One word from her
& there goes me.
cheebye muthu samee fcuker loser ME !

i was never, never prepared to lose you.

why care abt me, why care abt me??

HAHAHA
i really miss my grandma ALOT ALOT

i want france to win tonight, please.
cursing all italy supporters *kiddin*
I DUN WANNA GO BACK SCHOOL - - - HOLIDAY NV ENDING

2006-07-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

Life sentence.
I'm in.

Truth unheard,
promises not given,
i've lost more than enough
pain endured,
tears shed,
separation felt
warmth -unreceived

I don't understand. Is this just temporary happiness? Will this end? Will laughters turns into mourning another day. Are difficult situations meant to embrace us for the days ahead. I don't see the light in any direction.

Just a hug, will do.
I wunder what's driving me in life ....

2006-07-03T11:18:00.000+08:00

Yup yup,
She left the world on my first of july, 2006
Peacefully
No more pain
I love you, grandma

Memories
... was taken care by her till i was five
... taught me teochew and make me love bean spouts
... she cooked the best curry chicken!
... my petite-sized granny loves shopping
... i used to follow her everywhere (:
... i watched teochew operas with her & fell asleep
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

2006-06-30T02:47:00.000+08:00

Buttons

Play Stop Pause Fastforward Rewind

Yup, sometimes without yr own awareness, the 'Play' button was pressed throughout .. exhaustment, lethargicness (is there such a word, nvm) just comes along with it. Sins and tragedies repeating themselves. Probs solved and left unsolved. Mysteries left undiscovered. PAUSE for a thought. don't you just want to sit down and smell the aroma of coffee. fliping back old photographs, constantly remind yrself that u're gettin old. blahs. Rewinding back in rides of memories, perhaps u hv to watch yrself repeating some silly mistakes, tasting the good old times.
Yup. We're getting older.
Hopefully more matured.
I miss everyone, from my little kindergarden days, pri days, sec days (:
Holidays are over. Currently, mid yearsI'm left to 4 months to A level. Moving on the next phrase of life.
Changes unavoidable.

2006-06-27T03:11:00.000+08:00

Why star-less night?
Even stars can be cruel to the only moon,
what about billions of people around?

Just a little,
maybe a little more,
more of the gentleness ?

Maybe, so much 'maybe'
Uncertainity.

So tired,
I'm such a failure,
so powerless, to strive for what i want..

Sometimes it's just for a smile,
do anyone wants mine?

Put me to deep sleep, someone (x *Tired*

2006-06-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

Cheenah Girl. The Ching took some pictures.
(when she's supposed to be studying..)

Jacqueline's world (:

Outside my window; evening

The messiest study table, MUAHAHA!

The piles of notes tt i need to memorise 0_0

you start writing notes, on yr hand!

The must-have MP3 [g r e e n]

random: acne survival kit guide (for me!)

My polka dots collection (i'm not a bimbo/ah lian!)

My eeyore, TIMEOUT-chocolate!

Last look, my room

2006-06-24T15:30:00.000+08:00

Yea,
i admit defeat before i head unto the battle field
no confidence.

HAHA
i'm really tired.

let the phone stop ringing (:

the right girl, the right girl, the right girl ..

2006-06-24T06:16:00.000+08:00

This time,
tough fight.
too tired to carry on.

Cannot sleep,
still got exam in four days,
wednesday r bad days.

Aint wanna hear no more.
ARGH.

if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is a choice, if there is really a choice to be made ..

i do hope i get knock down by a car before a decision is made.
death is a form of escape. hahaha! dumb of me to think of that. not funny.

sian,
up to you.
school's reopening (good for you!)

Tired. Tired. Tired.
Love. Love. Love.
Home. Home. Home.
School. School. School.

Sucks! Sucks! Sucks!

2006-06-23T17:35:00.000+08:00

SO MUCH SO THAT PEOPLE WANNA CALL THIS A CHEENAH BLOG,
I DUN CARE !!! (For HJX) HAHAHA..

It's just a skin about a show i like, don't try imagining me blattering a lecture of chinese words, i just can't do it. If having only 30 chinese songs outta of 500+ english songs, makes me cheenah, so be it! rubbish! be proud if someone calls u cheenah! cause i resemble a MINAH -faint

CREATIVE (is good!)
as my mp3 is beyond servicing, they are giving me a green 6GB zen neeon, in exchange for my KANASAI pink 5GB zen neeon. i earn 1 GB, which is just right for the 100 songs i've downloaded recently, i'm a pirate. i'm collecting my mp3 later! THRILLED* YEA*

Ten songs that are ringing in my ear drums currently
(if u don't have, ask from me)
1. Oasis- don't look back in anger
2. Toploader- Dancing in the moonlight
3. 3 Doors Down- Be like that
4. Richard Marx & Donna Lewis- At the beginning
5. Dashboard confessionals- For Justin
6. Weezer- Pardon me
7. Goo Goo dolls- Feel the silence
8. Fountains of wayne- Sink to the bottom
9. Panic! at the disco- Nails for breakfast and tacks for snacks
10. Train- Drops of jupiter

I'M CHEENAH .. hahaha

hey, by the way, i hate it when people thinks that i'm a spoilt brat or some no-manners-no-respect daughter in the family. both my parents give me freedom and never ask an additional question about my life, BUT i've never misuse any of the goodness they've spared me. do you ever tell your mummy, the earring you bought recently, let her listen to yr podcasts with all those vuglarities, tell her that HJX is her newly son-in-law or problems back in school ... or watch soccer with yr dad. allowing me home late and have fun just shows how much they respect me as a teenager and i do have self-discipline. who says that my parents don't care, don't nag. they just stand at my point of view when they wants to deal with me (:
u can scold me, looked down on me, not my parents, esp my mum.
i'll whack your head off.
all my actions does not necessary represent that they are taught by my parents. sometimes it's my own will to be naughty and ill-mannered. DON'T say a word about my mum.
don't pretend to know me so well.

2006-06-22T02:17:00.000+08:00

it doesn't even matter if no one reads my blog, cause i'm just too free. i love ranting rubbish here.

life,
all i ask is someone who is willing to protect me, with love.
Girls like tv dramas alot hur?
cause what they see inside, is what they yearn.
i'm no exception.
even how different i may look from outside, deep down, i admit i'm just another weakling, who needs security.

sometimes, even the moon will feel lonely on star-less night (:

2006-06-22T01:45:00.000+08:00

all my love for HEJUNXIANG (but i'll not betray zheng yuan chang)
he's just a temporary replacement for ZYC, jessica tan! lol!
kidding, he's cute too. & no short version of HJX for me.

2006-06-21T21:39:00.000+08:00

i did nothing but sat before the com, and watched "devil beside you" by you tube. HAHAHA i love he jun xiang! & I GOT THE WHITE VERSION OF HIS NIKE BAG! woohoo!

i watched out of 14 episodes, seven ... and the last one.
so at least i know the perfect ending, i will stop craving for HEJUNXIANG for a while.
2 idiots of my life resembles HJX, one is vanessa and kx & yoke's ultimate eyecandy.
tt horrible goodlooking but short guy who can draw very well, right jessica ? -shameless
too short, shake head.

& i nv eat the entire day.
survive from 2 bottles of mineral, one pack of lemon barley, green tea and fresh milk.
easily to obtain from the frigde.
i feel like GOD.
100 of unwillingness to go dxo ltr.
nah, sry felicia.
cocco latte was a dissapointment yesterday. yucks.

- - when it comes to love,
we have different ways to show our affection.
but if u were to keep mute abt your feelings,
isn't fair?
nvm, i know someone gave up his hope on me.
=)
wo xi wang ni hui zhao dao zi ji de xin fu.
i'm not the blissful girl.
i just dun deserve it.

studies.. studies.. studies... =(

2006-06-18T17:26:00.000+08:00

i got my mum to listen to podcast, she laughed so hard.
i swam 3 times this week. destress. tanner than felicia
i cant find the songs i want. fuck
i miss chocolate fondue. double fuck
i lost the man i love. unforgiven me. super fuck

burrrrrrrrrrr ......
tues 9pm underage party (16 and above) at cocco latte,
girls free entry, guys $16, anyone ??

2006-06-18T02:15:00.000+08:00

error in the system
communication breakdown
i was the only person left in the control room
my mistake
self denial, self defend, self pity
uhmmm...
okay, loss of one friend.
i hate arguements.

ah bungs,
i can't promise that
what happened on friday,
wun happen again
it might just increases in accelerating amt.

i bought a pair of LEGO earrings.
i was happy, but never again.
perfect.

if our lives will turn better after we spilted.
to you, i was the jerk.

2006-06-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

Do the right thing at the right time.
Be the good girl that everyone wants me to be.

worst girl on the entire planet.
not fit to be anybody,
not fit to be important to anybody.
nobody cares.

why should i pay attention to myself.
even if i get 3 As for A level, who will remember ?
my mum? my dad?
who will still vanish in this world.

no one will be there to weep at my funeral.
my existence will goes with the wind. once and for all.

i'm not searching for life.
let it catch me.

2006-06-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

EXPLAIN TO ME:

1. [ 9pm, FIFA WC ]
- how the heck can japan lose to australia 0 - 3
- how the fcuk can australia shoot in 3 goals in 8 fcuking mintues.

2. [ 3pm, Movie: She's the man *4 stars]

- why Channing Tatum is so sexy.
a model for Abercrombie & Fitch, Nautica, Gap, Aeropostale, Emporio Armani.
~~the perfect man on my bed~~ making me drool.

The story .... Everyone has a secret. Duke want Olivia who likes Sebastian, who is really Viola, whose brother is dating Monique who hates Olivia who's with Duke to make Sebastian jealous, who is really Viola, who's crushing on Duke who thinks that she's a guy ...

3. [ 11am, Movie: Beachwarmers *4 1/2 stars]
- i am richy, heng is clarks and fer's cus.
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
lame! lame! lame! it's a perfect comedy for a bad day

good day. no studies. just men,jokes and dreams. fine (=
is the ideal guy of dream, that far from reality ?

i wun start with 'tall', 'dark', 'macho' etc.
sHARP nose, great wide smile, dimples??
smart, clean and neat-looking, just let me feel comfortable. oh! arms that can wrap me ard. i love HUGS!
intelligent, witty and a little mischevious thoughts (makes me feel stupid & be someone who gives me advice)
responsible, filliel and do the right time at the right time. (high IQ/EQ is impt!)
plays sports. anything. not table tennis. gay.
it will be good if he plays music. VIOLIN! piano! guitar, drum. i cant play anything for nuts.
he loves tv and movies! he loves ME!!!
nillionaire. caucasian/jap mixed. superficial me!
love babiesand making babies. i dun mind my ass turning big. grins.
he gives me a white rose everyday ? awww ....
[A man who will lay his life for mine, a man whom i'm willing to lay my life for]

lalala
nvm. reality check-- no such person
channing tatum will do (:

2006-06-10T02:05:00.000+08:00

just finished the opening match
2006 world cup
ger 4 - 2 crc
[wtf ?] confirmed alot of people lost their bets. lols.
had a sec sch gathering at newton earlier on
we couldn't get a cab back home loh
everyone's heading home for the game (: *it was good*

kyle's place
with the guys and my sister
little yuan mao was blocking the tv most of the time
O-le-ing most of the time *cute*
a merely six years old baby, who lost his front tooth, a week ago (x(x

at 1150pm of 090606
the world decided not to have any riots. all sitting before the television, making sure that their eyes are laid before the two teams, in white and red [germany! no7! cuteness!]
maybe the world was really peaceful at that very moment. viewing the same scene, for all mortal beings, from that little box of creation called "television". isn't the world a wonder ? now that i realised, now miracles are created thru this little game called football. i'm indulged into watching games (:(: i screamed, not shouted -terrible. i know why guys enjoyed matches. but rugby matches is still my fave, too rough.
i miss NEWTOWN all the sudden. my times in e2/3 [yanya's incident]. my little malcolm's times in e4/4. my guiding days. those days where toilets r recked up by the e4/5 guys, watching the bball guys' matches. the MR-LAU long-winded-assembly days.......... susan wong 0: betty wong 0: mimi wong 0:

2006-06-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

i don't have a boyfriend.
i'm in love, with someone who don't like me.
yea, he doesn't like me, but i don't exactly need to constantly remind myself of that hur? i don't really wanna give a damn about it, i got pretty affected before and now i just need to work my ass off, towards my A' levels.
i just miss him alot. most of the time. we hardly meet. please don't show me any sympathy. he will be in the arms of other girl soon & i'll be in another area of life. in seperate ways. soon.
maybe i don't deserve a boyfriend at the moment (:
i never, maybe that is 'retribution'.
especially over all the hurt i did to jerold.
like the whole world knows, we NEVER talk. for 2 years. same school. see each other as strangers. i'm very sorry. he will never know, he hates me for his entire life. i never expect him to forgive me. i'm the worst person on this earth. please contiune to torture me with all this guilt down in the corner of my heart. all i wish, is to see you happy with siqi. just contiune to stay in happiness & hate me. maybe that's what sinner should feel.

i hate pink,
but it's my lucky colour.
cause i met my TP eyecandy twice today.
he is the 180cm of darren ... ! [that daryl's brother, small, tanned boy]

i hate boys!
AARGH** God, why did you not make me a lesbian, or a man, or grant me a sugar daddy ?

(tmr is the last day of my course. amen!)

2006-06-08T00:13:00.000+08:00

Growing phobia against..
Jay chou's songs- they just make me feel insecured, they make me feel rather uncomfortable. i'll feel sick? they're nice but .. i can't explain the logic behind. i try to avoid listening to his voice.
MRT- i took em for 2 weeks, all the way to tampines. they looked like enclosed containers that takes hundreds of us, taking breathe out of us. i'll feel compressed, subpressed .. it's just a level of pressure that i'll feel when i take long rides. i need a diary to keep me going, i want my creative mp3 back, ASAP!
Temasek poly- i think two weeks is enough. the same environment makes me sick. coping in the same seat for more than ten hrs is .. i just think that i'm driving myself into insanity.

i'm pretty thankful that kyle picked me up from TP after the course. yup, all the way, good buddy indeed! i've not seen him for weeks! yup, both of us din eat the entire day till 7pm. we had fish&co. he doesn't seem to like the food, he's picky! i finished everything. nvm, he made my trip home pretty joyful, at least i dun feel that sick. good buddy indeed. all of us are heading to his place for world cup. i can't wait for my art course to end.
F C U K.
(i'm back into my "it started with a kiss" mood. enjoy the mv!)

a nice chinese song

FOR ANYONE WHO HV WATCHED "IT STARTED WITH A KISS".
*awesome recaps*
please mute the volume keys. cause this damn song is by that cindy wang -headache

anyway these songs are for you..
click >>
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rJp5YWazSPs and
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mJxQII25jag<>

girl likes guy for 5 years
guy ignore her for 5 years
they got married.
don't tell me it's just a frictional story.
it may occured on me.

2006-06-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

- 666 omen

- booked last night, sat 4rd row from screen

- with him (:(:(:

- he was so scared, hid under my jacket.

- he took my nike bag and white ipod nano

- exchanged;

- left me with crumpler and black ipod nano

- stinky and dirty

- woke up late

- cabbed to TP. 14 bucks.

- cheebye

- i miss you
i watched passengers leaving. the last train passed by my eyes. days ahead, aren't gonna be looked forward. sucide, abortion, mass destruction, if only God choose me. i'm tired.

2006-06-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

first day for red hangbao :/

Crying out love in the centre of the world is awesome
awww...

random: first love? can anyone still remember the increase in heartbeat, when u first fell in love? did it happened back years again? i've lost the first touch of first love, just as how many have too. it's good just seeing two youngsters pouring all their hearts and tears into a pool of love. my ability of description is so poor. i'll never be able to tell how beautiful this depth of purity of love, they have for one another. purity, puts you to do silly actions. it may be pure because u have not seen the heaviest of burdens the world is gonna give you. purity could be insanity, like applying for legal marriage at the age of 17 (: but what is true from the movie was that a photograph lasts forever. Memories and images will contiune to linger like a stain. the dead will not be lost with love. the living will be there, to tie up the loose ends. fulfilling the unfinished promise of love. it was never easy to forget. i won't.

OHH both my lovely white nike + sk's ipod (:, from HK! i'll tear down anyone who buys from there. any buyer for the blue nike bag? i bought it at $55, price negotiatable. i only bought it for a week. nvm, if there's no buyer.

please take a look at my manicure & pedicure skills. thanks to ongsoonkuey who painted so uglily on my toe nails & destroy my pedicure. bleahs!

what i did after sk destroyed my toe nails.
Jacq's production (x

what i did for felicia. brown french tip on gold. nice!
Jacq's production (x

what i did on felicia's toes. black butterfly on pink.
Jacq's production (x

my latest design on my nails. i cleared my french mani away on sat. this is done by nailzstroy (heeren lvl4) NICE! but ongsoonkuey destroyed it with acrylic. thanks =|

i miss you.
i'm a fool.
i'm blind.i scored zero in the subject of love.
my friends asked me to give up,
boy, i've come this far, no no.
i won't let you go, even if u really walk away from me.
standing under the universal, beneath the night of twinkling stars, with you matters to me, alot, alot. (:
although u say nothing, although u did not express any emotion, although u still treat me as a friend, it's enough.
lemme contiune to be a dumbass.
i'm willing to.
at all my expenses of time and distance. (x(x
dont pangseh me tmr. 060606. roar*

presenting "all kinds of time" by fountain of wayne <3

2006-06-02T16:09:00.000+08:00

2 Nike bags in 5 days. grins.
thnks to kyle's parents, they got me a nice white bag from HK, they dotes me so much.. i'm more than willing to be the nanny of his brother, ~~ahahahaaa~~
buddy better get smth ever better after his malaysia trip.
i hate GSS, i see nth but the blue nike bag. anyway i did bought it. i'm so exhausted, i feel dumb, i hv no idea how to priortise the impt stuff and time managament. i need a guardian angel, preferably a sugar daddy. then i wun starve =D

-- Who's side have i return? Where am i standing now? Why is uncertainty standing before me? I can only stand back and watch, seeing how my future is jigsawed, by the hands i'm losing trust on. My job now is just to burn all alphabets from books into my nut-shelled brain. dah! i hate it. & yr question puts me on thinking mode. i'm still giving it a thought. who's defining my life? myself?

is there anyone who can interpret this weirdest dream i ever had?
setting: my neighbourhood, my corridor, my house. uhmm, it's a war btw the asian minority (transexual, les, gays, wateva) against the western (media ep)? two angmoh reporters tried to enter my hse, but i begged them to jump off and end their lives, to save my family? & i pushed them off the building. ME! murderer in this case =| then, my hse was searched, my parents were questioned n kinda threatened. my sister was caught and asked to entertain the authority or all of us will be killed. fcuk! what kind of dream is this? i killed pple, leaned back and watched ... boo

2006-05-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

Facts of life
1. I have 451 songs in my pc (:(:
2. Music inspires me
3. My tummy is extremely bloated {due to mensus, terrible.)
4. I am ~~not a gf of any's~~ *what a truth*
5. My estimated timing to run to the loo for a pee: 30 secs (by ongsoonkuey, accuracy is zero in this case.) :x
6. Four songs to intro! How to be dead- Snow patrol, Drops of jupiter- Train, Supercollider- fountain of waynes and For Justin- Dashboard Confessionals
7. TAH-glam is a new word created by ms amoeba goh [unglam in malay?]

Temporary student at Temasek Poly is cool. like wuhuahua says, the grass is/seems greener on the other side. poly students might envy jc students for, we're spoonfeed by teachers. there's nth bad or good being both jc/poly student (=
My damn animation course just allows me to online from 9am-5pm everyday. My damn lecturer has strong hongkong ascent which puts me to sleep. TP has the highest amt of "hunks+babes" hur? What i see is just merely that the pple there takes a certain lvl of pride in their dressing. it's just effort.
Life now is pretty schelduled, eating hours r fixed cause i hardly hv breaks. & i get drained out easily after each day, so yup yup, this june holidays is gonna be burned up soon. SOON! in 25 days ?

sharmaine: yu ordered camomile flowers drink, did u? it tastes worse than urine.

if you know who u're & you make yr way to blog- i'm sorry. i did not think of consequences and made a grave mistake. let my existence not an obstacle for you to move on. you know i din mind it. yup ..

2006-05-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

Tea,
Cushion,
and Sunlight
is all you need for an afternoon at Essential Brew, Holland Village (:

i spent such a beautiful afternoon, realising my existence in life for once. i can give clothing another splash of new paint. my creativity may be limited to an extent but, fabrics is not smth which i cant conquer. let my brillant ideas shine this month of my life. YEA! i'm worth at last. Sorry pple, i'll be a full-time delicated-to-art student for the next 2 weeks, for my art course at TP. so... will hv to leave this blog alone =/

i've spent so much these days, on good food, movies (mi3, dv code, xmen, over the hedge) and a new dark-blue nike bag (:(: [i need to replace my low quality newurbanmale SHITTY yet pretty bag] hahaha ... there's more movies to go! just my luck, poseidon, she's the man & kwonsangwoo's korean love flick- my girl?

where got time to study ??

The Click Five - I'll take my chances
You and I, We never had it easy, baby, We've both been hurt before (Both been hurt before), And only time will tell us if we're gonna make it, There's no way to be sure, but ..
Oooooooohoo, Baby I'll take my chances with you, ooooooohoo, Baby I'll take my chances with you

2006-05-28T01:43:00.000+08:00

This week may be a cocked-up week, more bad news may be coming into my life but ..

1. i just saw my FIRST ever SHOOTING STAR,
by the night sky of sentosa. the weekend's sky was magnificent. (did i spell wrong?)
2. my 10 honey sticks, i think avocado is on its way
3. 'Over the hedge' was nice! =D cartooooon ..

yup yup. shooting star, felicia saw twice. i manage to see one. the other 3 guys were in the midst of men's talk. they missed everything, too bad. me & felicia screamed like mad dogs.
MOVIE was madness for foo + me. ran all over, called all over from 7pm and finally got first row seats for OTH at tiong. town was .. disappointing. yup yup, holiday (:

shouldnt we learn to cherish? u tend to regret. why humans cant .., is there anything that u're willing to sacrifice yr life for? i did not regret, i guess so. i feel ashamed. maybe i'm just tired. i'm craving .. ! for food? no, for small things happening in life. just a night before the stars, sorting out thoughts. maybe i shldnt, just silently living with my heart will do. why shld i care? haha. quiet. dun make it a mistake.

2006-05-27T15:42:00.000+08:00

I'm fine now.
sorry. (to jacqueline esp)
GP paper was, totally screwed.
It will be.
I doubt i'll escape from seeing red on my mid-yr report card
well, there's more to come in june & july.
exam, i'm 4 weeks from it :\

met jieying in town,
she did her eyebrows.
had for pepper lunch -yummy!
went far east for french manicure
dun step into 'charm' for any nail service, god, they suck for nuts
jieying went immediately to the shop next door, to get rid of those ugly painted nails
mine's fine, just dun dtare for it too long
then we had jap food for dinner
met lan pi xiao xin,
he brought me to indian pub -LOLX
damn cool! laughed till i almost dropped dead
met fer and shane up on mt. faber
the night sky was awesome !!!!
we only drunk caffine and tea. only fer is craving for drinks.
beautiful night, & i had a beautiful sleep of 13 hrs.
i'm gonna be busy for june holidays.
but i'll try to have enough sleep.
life has to go on although it sucks.

so what if u read aloud all my entries into my ears, do you care in the first place? can you ever shed some thoughts for me? yea, i'll be forgetting you, like you always wanted me to. and die by myself. lol

Speed; hiroko eriko tatako hitoe
ALIVE

Endless surfs, where does this sadness and pain come from?
The glorious days that wets the shores of hearts
Even if the future looks like its fading away as green plants die
Certainly someday the days will come when many flowers as tears will bloom
Even if far away, even if we can't see tomorrow
Please don't stop love
The end of this sea will finally be the blue sky

Winds blowing into my heart, please give me power not to lose to myself
Even if the rain keeps falling, even if the darkness is deep,
morning will come
leaning on the time flow and let's start the ship onto the mapless sea
When we keep believing, someday we can find our way, won't we?
To the place of promise

If forever pure emotion exists, please don't stop love
If we know the twinkle of lives that came into existence in this world
Let's start to walk onto the neverending journey

Somewhere in the everlasting sail
We'll be able to meet again certainly
Love is alive.
This emotion is alive in our hearts forever....Alive
Even if far away, even if we can't see tomorrow
Please don't stop love
The end of this sea will finally be the blue sky
We're not alone
In this heart, love is alive forever
Let's live on
Love is alive

han qi came over to my place to pass me honey sticks from coffee bean! yummy! he's mad, like me! same species! i'm watching 'over the hedge' with foo soon. clement is a fool! wao haha .. madness ...

2006-05-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

when there's pain in me, there will be more physical pain to come along. Did i mention who my tragus piercing is done for ? now, URGH!!! I MUST GET MY TOUGUE PIERCING BY END OF JUNE. then navel by birthday. pain pain pain pain. saddist. no tatoo ... only piercing! piercing! for u've pierced my heart ....

can u just see how insane i've turned into. not myself.

2006-05-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

i heaven eat i heaven bath i heaven DIE! tmr got GP exam, then one month of exam. i need a piece of life. now. sorry folks, i'm damn fcuking high tonight.

2006-05-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

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.................... sinking right into depression mode, 'alive' is a very nice japanese song.

2006-05-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

New blogskin (:
Any prob with tagging comment?
Longest entry that i may ever have
Click 'X' on top right hand corner if you cannot restand nonsense. warning!

Dont ask me about the pink blogskin. It's the essence that i'm seeking after. Public yet a personal diary. This belongs to me. There's so much within me, that i wished i can spill it all out. This world need not any moment of my existence. I really wished i wasn't born till today. Why wasn't my name up in today's newspaper. Murderer! make me your target. i don't mind dying in dirty hands of some pervert or rapist. Just stop me from breathing. Being pushed around, ordered, do you even realised that i was not a THING. human, chinese, teochew, i have identity to myself. This is the one and only me. Hais, i repeat myself again, i'm not a thing. Can people just spare more thoughts for me? I know i've commited grave mistakes now. Is human hearts really that fragile? Just go ahead and break mine, break my lungs too. Sometimes it's not the right time, place and moment to ask silly questions. I almost want to run unto the road just now. Where's future for me. Clinging unto faith, boo, i let You down. Sorry. Thanks for the song playing in my media player. Guess what, i took out this ablum i bought 11 years ago, when i was primary 3. Speed- alive. my ever-favourite japanese, i memorised all their songs. 'felicia, u still can rmb, do u ?' lol. Although it's been years, u just cannot forget some things. What about things that just happened, few mins, few days and not talking about few months. The insignificant me. Mini me. Adoring nothing but .. sigh, God ? He's there. Watching 'da vinci code' did not break my faith. i'm strong in one aspect. i hope i am, in my tomorrow's GP paper. i dunno what to say now. Just uttering that lovely japanese song. i think all songs from that 6 ablums arent a prob to both me and felicia. sign, sorry to everyone i let down, including myself. boo. shoo.

love is alive? how true can this be?

2006-05-24T02:29:00.000+08:00

Dun ever blame me for not using haloscan/ cbox/ wateva.
i'm PC-retarded, the blogskin will got haywired when i tries to put other type of comment box. whatever.

i'm going to a wonderful art course, learning animation - cinema4D, watch me shine.

Love this new skin.
I dun understand myself, i hope someone else tries to. I dun wanna give up myself. I'm trying to adapt into this awful world. 39 mins of bliss. Give me the best deceptions. all i want.

I will do well for A's. I will go NTU. I will go to school on time & I will love mummy, mei, ah bungs and you. I will contiune to hate the world & daddy. i'm slpy, bye folks.

2006-05-21T05:50:00.000+08:00

I TOT THERE'S GONNA BE A GD WEEKEND.
I thought.
urge.

but had a week of good food, mon-sat.

left hm at 0910pm, returned at 0516am, i din drink.
i ate non stop, from cf. cartel to roti john. fattening. bleahs. i like jave, he's cute. i like his smile & teeth (small small) gosh, tat's the only thing that cheers me up. HEHs. he sent me a nice song (: it ends tonight- all american rejects

one more week to june hols, finally!

mabbe it's time, to start diverting attention on myself, on my own work. what kind of achievement am i yearning for? just need some silence by the corner. i've been thinking .. stoping all that is unneccessary ?

2006-05-20T00:22:00.000+08:00

pardon my language.
FCUK.
moody day,
still kena pangseh -sian

i missed sitting by that corner, on the basketball court.

that day, brother was saying something, i thought i really regretted my actions for the very first time. i felt awful. dumb and silly.

had a week of delicacies. just ate fish& co. had ajisen twice. pasta mania on tues. damn BROKE now.

did i fall for the wrong guy =S yes, jimmy?.

but i love RAIN. (cutest korean male artist)

one of the nicest dance i've ever seen (:

2006-05-19T01:31:00.000+08:00

18/05/04
something tragic happened.
wow it's been two years.

i need a job. quick cash. no contract.

i'll be bored over the weekends.

movies that i wanna catch
- Da vinci code
- Poseidon
- MI3
- Xmen3

the rugby match i watch on wed was great. PJC won JJC & SAJC won RJC. I'M IN LOVE WITH SAJC NO. 22 but i admire RJC no. 11 (angmoh!) being a betrayer of Pjc, i cheered so much loudly for sajc. lol. i lurve the spirit of the students there. Pjc sucks. & my jap-eyecandy-lookalike was there tooo.

It's time for me to wake up and realised that no guy will lay their eyes on me. haha

2006-05-16T12:31:00.000+08:00

Blogging from school art room
Enough of boy-crazzzzze.
I saw some J1, who looks like my Jap eyecandy :\

13:52 (my ever-fastest 2.4 timing!)
Was coughing when i ran,
& my toe swell again
in sandals now, like some 'bai ka'

was having mood swings last night
but met a gorgeous guy in trucks!
by the swimming pool
swam till 2130.
mood swings GONE.

Running out of cash again
I need a rich gay bf ?? *eeeeks*
Yokie brought a FHM mag to school. woohoo

2006-05-14T13:49:00.000+08:00

1st day of long wkend:
rot half the day, refused to wake up till 2pm (half the day gone!), did research on mags. Fel called, came over to my place for dinner, then off our butts to marine square. i sent my mp3 for repair, it's gonna take A MONTH, no music no life. We shopped, Fel got a pair of heels. Saw his pri-sch lookin eyecandy @#$%##%&%$ cute. so? ooooo wanted to go maxbrenners for choco fondue but no more stock, so left after 2 mouths of their water. went town 24/7 coffee c. for fondue, wow! & some nice duck beef salad. Beautiful people deserved a beautiful night, bleahs.

2nd day of long wkend:
Went clinic to confirm my drug allergy but doctor .. cannot confirm & i cant rmb was capsule or watever, so i have to turn to an experimental pig to try drugs on myself, to see if my eyes swell after usage @#$%@&@# ??? then i towned with Fel. did pedicure (pretty!) and sat in subway for TWO feeding our eyes with hunks & cuties (x(x yesterday's cineleisure was like a paradise. met winson, he treated both of us to dinner, then some chinese movie. some guy came to pick us up & treated us to drinks at the aviator, mt faber. a great place to chill. i reached hm at 4am.

3rd day of my long wkend:
STUDDDDDDY.. alot of work to rush thru.
was talking to Fel, i told her i kinda like the feeling of being part of minority. interesting. i dun like being with the flow. there's too much updates with their upcoming kinda of trend. why a follower? be yrself, even if u hv to b a minority. be an individual tat others look upon. i yearn to be one. yada yada...

2006-05-09T13:44:00.000+08:00

Monday; Yu wun wanna know what's been going on that fatal day. i have to resign to climbing of sch fences to avoid being booked late. Call me a fool but that was EXCITING. & i guessed i exerted too much energy (having the fact tt i only had an hr slp the night before), i caught a flu.

so, on tuesday (today), i nv go school again. the no. of medical certs which i've handed up is more than my assignments. HAHA

I dun understand, i cannot b bothered anymore. Cause actions always speak louder than words. I'M SICK. ARGH!

2006-05-07T14:51:00.000+08:00

Both girls and guys are getting out of hands.
Not saying that i'm against anyone but .. the world is indeed changing before i knew anything.

.. sex/ abortions/ HIV issues
.. lesbians/ gays issues
.. relationships/ divorce issues

Anyway, will u blame yr own genes if yr kids turned out crooked? will u grant em blessings? sometimes it's really hard being gay/les, yr parents DUN understand.

i'm definitely straight, just wanna hv a say over those recent issues, other than S'pore 10th general elections. i know nuts abt tt. Sg boys is a little too much of muscular guys which seriously turns me off. i'm off, swimming & tanning with ms goh.

- - i'm strewed, by an unrefined bastard. i feel so tired abt everything. STAY AWAY! SHOO!

Fort minor- where'd you go.
I miss you so, seems like it's been forever, that you've been gone. Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, that you've been gone, please come back home...

2006-05-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

Took a break on the ______ friday. undescribable. my bag was only filled with mags anyway! i forgot all about the materials needed for my only 1hr lesson & lecture, too bad too sad. & with my golden strands of hair, with my piercings, i still managed to slip off any catch from those discipline authorities! with a poor management of discipline committee. Stupidness is acceptable.

Had fish&co seafood platter with jieying, met diane there, we shopped. She got herself a pair of havianas. i was so envious.
Nvm, i saw the grp of campus superstar candidates (w/o renfred n yuyang), they r so short & FUGLY. i wanted to scream at cheeyang "hwachong, ends so early?" -oops- went to see new facial doctor (change doctor again!)
4 rules for my face..
-no squeezing -no facial -no blotting -no cream, moisturizer, toner ...
no wunder my face's like some uneven piece of shit. AHA

then i cldn't resist, got myself a pair of braziliano praia flips .. since i need to get sandals (no slippers allowed in sch!) a BIG excuse to shop and i get 20% from those lovely ngeeann poly cuties. baby blue seems to be my fave colour. even my asics sneakers.

germaine: felicia aka. miss goh is my bestie frm 88' too (:

2006-05-04T02:23:00.000+08:00

2pm: woke up
3-5pm: online + research
5-830pm: doing art
830-1240am: talking to miss goh, from her place, to 7-11, till we sat by the road side. police from their patrolling cars literally stared at us. lol.
1240-0145am: mr ong sk called. like finally ?

spending [01:02:03am on 04/05/06] together is unsignificant to dumbass! smack yu! i'm not gonna sleep the whole tonight, i'm gonna mug for my econs test. wow. mugger me.

it's probably challenging to think back about nice moments when u had with people. cause u will think about nasty arguments u had with those pple too. yea, it does puzzled me when pple actually dun like to rake up their past & tell u things like (eg. ex relationships), what ? bad flashbacks or .. it might triggers the once-upon-a-time love ? lol. it's the past so, learn to move on. tt's why i told myself, 2 years le :| YEARSSS!

me & miss goh knew each other like since 5 yrs old, nv really argue/ quarrel before, we talks from sex, to men, to lee kuan yew to .. aliens. AHA do yu have such nice friends? i felt so sad when i realised i drifted apart so much from my sec frens. i missed everyone from 1/3, 2/3, 3/4, 4/4 .. the angels 4, the girl guides, the .. every little thing in ntss, even the mean principal. i'm looking forward to our seoul garden dinner nxt wed (x(x back to studies* mug* mug*

2006-05-03T15:37:00.000+08:00

When things don't go your way, it just simply don't not go in the way u desired it to be. Supposely u're gonna have your nafa 2.4km run today, u just accidentally dropped somehting really heavy on yr last lil' toe ?? Ouch, u got the pain, cant put on the damn shoes, rushed to the bus stop in slippers & just missed the damn bus. Lucky my PE teacher excused me.
Cabbing to school is not cheap for me =x (There goes my miserable tuesday morning)

So i got smarter on wed, i refused to get up for school, i end at 12pm anyway ;)

Time do fly, esp when u're enjoying the hours u've, & blink!- IT'S THE FCUKIN MAY NOW. wishing the piles of workload behind my back will just disappear, wishing that dollars just pop out in yr wallet, wishing that the one will return to yr side... yr wishes just don't come true. Yea, this sucks. & this mentality of mine will definiely run thru the whole of 2006. Did i mention that it was not a good year anyway? I MISS EVERYONE whom i heaven contact much with.

2006-05-01T12:08:00.000+08:00

Too free to blog
A level does not seems to be my first priority.

I have too much to speak up for myself
I can rmb details u said
I can pretend nothing was wrong

Wrong time, Wrong place, Wrong people

I forked out time and effort.
If u were to put on yr white specs.

AHAHA
Tell me, everything shldnt hv happen
right from the start.

2006-05-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

Chicken essence aids in recovering yr pimples =D=D (EYES WIDE OPEN!) My mum is feeding me with SHARKS' FIN now, 0123am =D=D i'm a very happy girl although anger is still burning within me. B U T delicacies melt every unhappiness. I know i'm blogging alot, i'm bored. the sharks' fin is of different colour but so muhc nicer with extra ingredients like sea cucumber, crab meat too ... MUMMY + FOOD = <3<3

My mum cooked a whole pot of sharks' fin..
01/05 breakfast
01/05 lunch
01/05 dinner
still can ta-bao for my entire 05A06 class during out ktv session tmr
*very happy*

2006-04-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

i came across plentiful of cute guys on the net, but all are GAYS. men, are transexuals digusting\pitiful to you ? trans are snatching men from women, so are GAYS! so may a virus be spread over the world, killing all sperms. & i mean it. EVERYTHING PISSES ME OFF, RIGHT NOW!

Rei invited me to watch his soccer match at tampines 40 mins before it, at eleven pm. sometimes i do wunder if it was a joke tat he entered SJI. it must be. and i sat in starbucks ;wisma for an hour and laughed at every guy i see. they r pitifully-fugly. the world is ending.

let's not be boy-crazy anymore. i see more potential when i enter NTU so, i shall concentrate on ALEVEL. do i ever study ?
i can never enter a university in the first place. i'm pathetic. i'm stupid. i cant even get over a damn thing tat was bothering me for the past 2 years. Everything is gettin on my nerves, every word u say, every dumb acton u do, FCUK OFF. leave my world quietly. Tmr's 05A06 ktv outing ..... i need to get lunatic, i've lost my marbles, ARGH!

To ah bungs (fer& heng): i didnt mean to lose my way thru all those incidents happending these days but when pressure is on me, my direction just stop going right. maybe i need more time to adapt to something i can concentrate one, which is loving myself more. i know i've nt give myself more attention than any. sometimes i just wanna make fun of myself to curb the pain. hurhur..

2006-04-29T15:08:00.000+08:00

got back home at 5 am
ktv-ing all night is no kidding
exhuasted with no voice when yu're home
worse when u hv bad dreams, dreams tat could be so realistic, could i really have been crying if someone spottted me aslept? & i actually found the answer to life IN A DREAM ? i nv thought i was such a failure :\

Saturday
could be just nice to stay n slack at home. lazing at home, eating Q-bite shrimp wantan, such instant foodcould be just ideal for an afternoon. yea, gotta do alot of work over the long weekend. i just gotta start mugging for a' level. it sounds like total crap to me.

2006-04-27T18:15:00.000+08:00

Was watching the little kids playing at the void deck, i remembered how long it have been that i played block-catching or even carpark-catching. i wouldnt say i'm a kampong kid, but definitely someone who have fun childhood. i missed my childhood, without worries, i played all day, at the same spot, same playground, with the same people, same game rules .. i was naive then. can i be too now ?

2 years passed, soon i'm out of college too, but there's still so much misunderstandings btw us. Was talking to michelle today, suddenly she made me say out so much things tat was buried in me, without my knowledge. Life's such a bitch. Some point in time, u just come to realise tat- why are things happening the way u dun expect em to be.

Both my ah bungs are having hard times in school, both jc & poly, i think it will be best tat 3 of us just drop out to ITE :\ Anyway, NAFA's exhibition was good but they r fcukin KIAM-SI-YUP, they did not display anything from school of fashion. What is the meaning ? Idiots, pple go all the way for tat.

2006-04-26T12:55:00.000+08:00

Yoke was saying something about waking up in the right hour. I think i did not wake up on the right side of the bed too. (i seriously just need more emo-rock songs, yoke, send me!) With enough rest of perfect 7hrs + first attempt to conquer the awful taste of chicken essence, pple did observed hw moody i was today. No reasons, yea, maybe . . there is. I'm just too sick and tired, people. About life, about myself, about my work. This is just the point of my life, where i start to reflect again. awwwww..

I
NEED
MORE
EMO
SONGS.

going NAFA for art exhibition ltr, i hope i get inspired, choked & die. Granny got into the hospital again. Dont life just suck ?

2006-04-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

Good signs
- i definitely have a new look (hardly anyone can recognise me =D) ugly or not, it's up to myself to define. so, dun try to comment too much. i love the way i look, esp with my red hot pimples
- And i'm absolutely not a fashion wannabe/ follower, I am who i am, i dress up the way i love myself to be.
- i fulfilled one of my wishlist ;;tragus pierced (x
- 05A06 is more lovely then ever, night jaunt was fun, we entered OCH, went night safari, changi v, transexuals r the coolest pple i ever see, but my voise is so much feminine than theirs
- i managed to skip school twise the week, with fake mcs

Bad signs
- i definitely cannot make it to university.
- my mp3 got confiscated while listening in assembly
- i might be able to escape from my art teacher's scoldings this coming week
- i'm broke. VERY BROKE.
- my ear hurts a little :/ and my hair, uhmm, is nt easy to manage.

WHINE. WHINE. whine.

happy birthday nagashima rei, if u even come to my blog. tot i've nv really hanged out with yu but ... u're still one of the cutest jap i ever see. he's only 16. omg.

2006-04-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

boonie: r you still contacting the BRGs, we gotta meet up, june is two motnhs away :\

i met him today
he's gettin shorter, slimmer, smaller, tanner and uglier which makes him cuter & more adorable. cute= ugly but adorable. BUT, tat dumb asshole gave his tamagotchi to a fcukin-i-dunno-who girl. FCUK U, may her genital area gets some mosquitoes' kisses. cut my crap.
ANYONE INTERESTED IN YJC vs. MJC volleyball match on friday, 21 april at CCAB ?

Jacqueline Koh wants those heels! the shortie needs em badly.

2006-04-19T12:52:00.000+08:00

a bad incident occured 45 mins ago.
cramps was targeting thru out the entire morning.
horrible day.

memories that flashed back, i recalled so much. it was all my own retribution to suffer this right now, ended up in such a tragic state. the worst part was when heng reminded me of tt fatal day abt walking together into the sch compound. PIANG! there goes everything. why am i doing all these desipte yr fcuin ignorance. i feel like struggling myself off, too much pressure. aint good for me. i'll probably gonna dehydrate with loss of h2o cause of too much flow of tears. gimme life now, someone.

is everything i did worth ?
is everything i did worth ?
is everything i did worth ?

bad bad bad..

2006-04-18T12:40:00.002+08:00

he lost his match against RJC volleyball yesterday :/ tat poor boy being the diver just kept sliding against the ground surface, as if he's cleaning entire court for CCAB. lucky for the knee pads, or i'll probably wept to tears. PAIN?!! i love his white jersey [5], different from the rest of the yjcs. the easily-contented.
i happened to see this bunch of i-dunno-what-school from f a r, but they have the ugliest colour for their jersey. although green is one of my fave colour, but theirs was a turn-off. DISGUSTING GREEN BUNCH of idiots! poo! poor guys! Meridian JC got macho volleyball players, ahaha FRIDAY, yjc against em' BAHHx no biasness for handsome cuties. lolx.
back to studies, i dun wanna mention but i used fake mc for monday. in exchange for a day of shopping, WORTH WHILE (: contented girl who bought nth.
i just want to see a little more happiness in my life
; impossible

there's just more weirdos appearing in art room, esp those with ~~red~~ specs, shh..

2006-04-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

3 days was wasted right in the time of my life. too bad. i cannot be bothered with this piece of junk life i have anymore. & i'm still gonna watch him play volleyball match tmr at CCAB! i watched 6 movies in 3 days, but only spend ten. pirated vcds are just part of my lifestyle :P art of seduction is good, with pretty girls and boys to see. ARGH, im too tired. bye folks.

2006-04-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

it's always very nice to know tat i have good friends ard the world who will save me at the time when i'm devastated! & one of which is definitely ah bungs and today, xiao wei recused me. She brought me a pair of asics sneakers from onitsuka tiger as my SUPER early birthday gift 22/08 (x God bless good girls. lala. Heng saw one pair, so i decided to give her xtreme early bday gift too, she felt so guilty. ahaha .. i hv tons of rich friends surrounding me. i cant believe tt xiaowei just bought an adidas bag without really liking it, just ... she needs to get rid of crumpler. & it cost 200 bucks. i wunder hw long it takes for me to save tat kinda of money. i'm a bad kid on gd friday i'm watching american pie 1, 2 .. at bestie's (fer)

i'm very thnkful for the friendship God gave. Felicia was there in my life since i was five, Heng was there since 7 ?? now, thru the seperations we had during sec sch, our bonds r thicker than blood , than water? sometimes, it's just so good to feel how blessed we r at times (:

2006-04-10T18:50:00.000+08:00

It's been FORTY40 mins, nvm.
i endured 8 hours in the morning (i know nobody understand what i'm talking) On the other hand, i'm definitely feelin thrilled to tell everyone- i made a japanese mix-blood fren today. long story. but it's so cute, i nv know tat someone wun know tt he has a chinese name or not. Monday was nv tat blue, esp when i made it on time for sch today. Life is full of unexpected issues, it will bring around n round but sometimes, u just get back to the same old spot. stuck for life.

It's been merely fun for the weekend, xcept meet-e-parents. You wun wanna know the rubbish she uttered to my mum. SMACK her face, so what if my result is bad. I will still live long! muahaha! went town, pool, cafe cartle, 'keeping mum' & coffee bean with 05A06 buds. i'm looking forward to long weekend, to night jaunt next friday, going to night safari, geyland, OCH, LCK cementary .. + + FUN! xD it's always abt the pple u hang out with, lolx

2006-04-07T12:55:00.000+08:00

FCUK.

1 minute to 1pm, 7th of april
22hrs to meet-the-parent
2 days to superband but..
3 months to common test,
5 months to art coursework submission
7 months to A'level
8 months to freedom.

I hate counting time, i hate it when my form teacher starts nagging about expectations, laziness, dunno what she's gonna kbkp to my mummy tmr. I hate it! I'm losing my marbles these days, not able to function properly. Even fun brings only temporary healing only. Poor me. Maybe this is the only venue that i can VENT MY ANGER OUT. Even tot i dunno wass's with me being with retards under the roof of same sch, it does relieve stress when i luff at em. U kuku guys will nt feel the tension of A' level.

God is fair. (just on general lar!)
Everyone has the same amount of time.
The ugly goes with the gd-looking
the gd-looking are airheads.
the tall may nt hv gd face or figure.
the rich die earlier.
I shldnt be envious of anyone. I have equal time as the hwachong nerds, & i dun see why i can beat em on a'lvl field. i must, cause i hv lesser subjects, even more time! i not stupid, just too lazy to study.

from F F F to A A A ???? (possible?)

2006-04-07T00:34:00.000+08:00

I spend 90 bucks on facial products, almost a hundred a month, one year= 1.2k but do my fcuking face turns better? pimples pop even more, scars is still my best friends (Nvm, i enjoy doing facial!) Vainpots out there, try thefaceshop 9.9bucks peel-off mask. i prefer tat to the wash off. the peeling part makes me feel tt i have e new skin, r e f r e s h e d. totally retarded thinking.

Sch's intense atmosphere is strong. Stalkee is a lesbian? Stalkee glazed at my friends? Spank her ass. and yu fcuking guys, stop being losers. special part for 3 hair if he's reading - - water cooler no hot water, ask or buy frm canteen vendors la, throw away. DUMB. watching yr retard actions makes me wanna pity yr stupidness. anyway maggie mee is not good for yu. i can predict tt yr facial knowledge is almost zero. kok kok mee will make yu pop more pimples out. ltr end up lyk ugky freak lyk me!

Tell me, my skin is thick. muahahaah!
kill me, cause i say soonkuey is cute yet irritating too. BAHH but he dun belongs to me. Fcuk care. i seriously dont mind taking time off to watch yu play volleyball match! kill all the girls who r watching yu. muahahaa!

2006-04-07T00:27:00.000+08:00

Jay 你听得到

有谁能比我知道你的温柔像羽毛

秘密躺在我怀抱只有你能听得到

还有没有人知道你的微笑像拥抱

多想藏着你的好只有我看得到

站在屋顶只对风说不想被左右

来讨厌下雨的天空直到听见有人说爱我

坐在电影院的二楼看人群走过

怎么那一天的我们都默默的微笑很久

我想我是太过依赖在挂电话的刚才

坚持学单纯的小孩静静看守这份爱

知道不能太依赖怕你会把我宠坏

你的香味一直徘徊我舍不得离开

I dunno what am i supposed to feel now. I seriously cant stand the times when things just feel bad. Even since u first call me, i've been so dependent on yr voice. Is it a right thing? I know u read my blog, peeping tom! peeping jim!

2006-04-06T00:17:00.001+08:00

I slammed his call last night,
he's so nt gonna call me for the next month, petty bitch. Even tot Yjc has plenty of girls eyecandying yu, that's nt somehing i shld be envious abt. Get back to yr vanessa bah! *Totally irritated

I'm starting to have more fun in school, those thrilling days. Firstly, my stalkee found my friendster, dumbass me, and i think, she thinks tat i'm a retard, i only wanna see how photogenic can she get. PJC got only a few pretty girl & i'm nt a lesbian. There's just no guy for me to X_X and 2ndly, my eight characters definitely clashed with all people from tt kukululu cca. fcuk is the word.

Okay, a quest
"With only 4 features, God can create ZILLONS of diff looking faces" how smart can this ass be ? just a pair of eyes, nose, mouth and probably shape of face. God has nth better to do but moulding faces in the heaven, how cute can He get? Man, i'm easily amused by little things ard the world.

I can feel the intense competition for A' lvl, coming frm her, tt her!, no one can beat me, the 'A' student. i'm such a KB bitch :x Nvm, night jaunt is coming so, the entire A06 is going, what a big cls outing. We can bitch n celebrate jieying's birthday. uhmm, thailand trip is cancelled cause of BIRDS. may all flying objects die tmr! -hmph

2006-04-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

i went beach today.
with kaixin.
went town
stalk around ...
& die!
he pranked me today =\

2006-04-01T11:42:00.000+08:00

i'm a BAD girl.

i overslept on friday
i s k i p school =x
and i went "wild wild wet" with free complimentary tickets. SIGH, disappointing scenes, only one charming hunk there, ANGMOH! the rest is .. ermmm .. typical ahbengs ahlians. bleahs, went town, suntec, then to michelle's birthday dinner. happy birthday!, you're enlisted into the "legal age of clubbin drinking and M18 movies"

05A06 is a ridiculous class, assholic arts students with ...
the KU?KU? in their brains are questionable.
lame entry on the class blog! me and shaoqi will win best couple! LOLX!

okay sunday 2nd April
campus superstari dont care if renfred win .. i dont care
HE'S CUTE, CHARMING .. AND I LOVE HIS SMILES
(cause i know tt hwachong guy will win.. uhmm)
i'll still support renfred, followed by yuyang n adriano (x(x
only adriano older than me by 2 days, he'll be my next bf. LOLX

2006-03-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

School is always nth but boring to me. Awaiting for 5pm to arrive, to end sch, to go hm and slp ... & i actually had five hrs of break -long wait- my poor teacher got scolded by me for being ridiculous, serve her right! bah! i too sick for hmwork, school sucks cause my results is reflected so. LOLX oh i have a damn compo to rush ltr. yawn* thailand trip is only to chiangmia ? how much things can i buy ?! uhmm.. sijia; i dunno what show le, uhmm ... i just completed samsoon, very nice. sassygirl-chunhyang u finish le mah ?

2006-03-28T23:15:00.000+08:00

AHAA,
yes! he does looks like renfred frm campus superstar
c u t e*
baby, yu make me wanna LALA, renfred is too gorgeous tot he cant sing for nuts. he CAN dance and is photogenic (: [audience, pls agree, i just love boys] muahaha i sounded like some 30++ old virgin. i just download yuyang's pic which cost me $3. and i downloaded it, actually! my God.

ohh as i was worrying the whole entire day, my mum actually agreed to let me go thailand in june hols *wEEz* i was imagining all possible scenes of how disappointed she will be upon my c'mon test results. okay, i din tell her i got F9 for gp YET :x DAHH! she had signed the consent form, i'm as joyful as a 3yrs old with an icecream. together with all the bitches in my cls, it's gonna be fun! awaiting for june.. *please dun give us any @#$%&@# airline.

been having too much fun after results was released, everything is F for FAIL so con't to enjoy life when i can. & i actually cut my hair to feel less-burdened over sch work, uhmm ... lunatic!

2006-03-26T11:02:00.000+08:00

This blog is ALIVE again.
Sorry for my ignorance for it, kinda of close it for past weeks to .. push myself to study. 24th was the last day of exam. So indeed, i studied but the hopes of being an 'A' student will nv come true (as if there's ever any hope for it). the xpectation of this c'mon tets isnt high, just gimme O O O grades on report card will do. it looks better then straight Fs. Gosh, abstinence from distractions for just 2-3 wks already murdered me. i cant believe if tt carry on till a' lvl. oh, strew A lvl!

the amount of hrs i slept during exam week was equivalent to the amt i slept for just yesterday. nineteen hours of beauty sleep (my pimples fade, okay?) My class bbq on last day of exam was fabulous. breaking the ever-record of highest attendance rate 14 outta of 20 folks was present. BBQ, WINE, TV, DVD, Mahjong, Prata breakfast, Resourvoir Walk ... eh ... alot of GOSSIPING !!! i'm exhausted. Getting my results tmr =\

i'm gonna be holy ltr (church), but even holier to shop and shop ltr ... wooohooo

2006-02-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

Sorry, may have to leave aside this blog for a while. work are piling in tonnes, after one another. i've been runnin ard doctors to doctors cause im not cured from any of my illnesses! my granny is hospitalised. but i cant visit her, dont wanna spread my illness to her. God bless her, i really want her back home. Let no suffering be upon her. no more.

common test is coming, no joke. i don't wanna retain (tot i wanna go NAFA) but dun wish to waste a year of effort. eh ... yea, art paper quest is releasing next week, so is A lvl ? my chinese A lvl result, gimme a D7. i'll be overjoyed.

2006-02-25T01:16:00.000+08:00

when people named emselves with cute nicks, they turned out to be rather scarry-looking all the time =| _ _ _ _ yet condemned. uhmm ... yea .. ugly

2006-02-15T16:12:00.000+08:00

it's the romantic movie marathon this week (x

i caught..
fri- i not stupid two
sun- have fun with dick and jane
tues- walk the line
wed (ltr)- probably pink panther sneak/ marrying the mafia !

OMG it's all-round partying when my common test is coming on 9 march, i'm turning really crazy now.

these days, many things came by and forth of my life, i pushed myself not to think and bother too much but these brain cells went uncontrolled. i tried to keep things low but many terrible scenes are surfacing up. is this what i want ? i did not ask jacqueline. she went insane and keep blaming, and blaming.. even further. she seems to see more of each side, each angle. i hv no idea. i couldnt ask for more, i seek for peace and forgiveness. i need some space. uhmm..

ps: annabel, just msg me when yu free ? (: anyway, im v broke.

2006-02-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

oh man, i ran and studied today.
from 6am- now ?
i just hope i can eneter that party ltr

im influenced easily these days, lucky by the positive things. i received my weird v's gift from jim, all handmaded, not by him ! lolx, so cute la, my name + 3 roses. lolx. i need a watch, people ! i dont mind girls, bungs, wateva ! i lost my fcukin watch, it cost an air ticket (frm my HK aunt) and a hundred seventy SG. wass going on without time ? =\

2006-02-09T16:00:00.000+08:00

first day of menses aint equals to bad day ahead .. cause even though i had headache en cramp for half the day, but everything went smoothly, even for the first test (econs) that i passed since sch reopen. (=
i'm hiding in art room now, oh God, i need extra brain juice for creativity. why am i person who uses equal power of both sides of my brain, [right- IQ][left- creativity] ?? i cant handle such a confused me ! why ?
im turning artty farty ? (is this the way u spell it ?) tmr we're going NAFA for some art exhibition (: (: meeting joleen after that. i gotta rush alot of work. this weekend, got yjc funfair, got party going on .. busy me ! =P

junior lian: episode 19 was so so so sweet ! one more esp to go !

2006-02-07T17:18:00.000+08:00

tied down by alot of school work, i still wanna have my fun but, i guess sometimes, human dont have a choice to decide their path. i wish my brain can work alittle faster but with my 'sufficient' sleep, i guess not. why dont we have a chance to decide our fate for even 5 mins, i'll make drastic changes to my pathetic life. but somehow i love my monday, i have 3 tv shows, bringing life. please, for goodness's sake, desperate wvs & grey's are not just about sex, they gives meaning. but watching desperate's, makes my hair stand, mariel (bloody dead woman), his voice is spooky.

stop giving hope in my life, im afraid i cant take up the consequences that i may faced in future. wish luck to the o lvl kids, take yr time to think abt yr future, it's still bright outside the world.

2006-02-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

It goes:
"Baby, won't you tell me why, there is sadness in your eyes?
I don't wont to say goodbye to you.
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget.
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want"

uhmm..

it bring me back into my deep thoughts, who am i again in this world.
i seriously just want to breakdown once and for all.
craziness is once stepping into my world, i though i was able to endure friday's madness, now comes saturday, im MAD by now. i thought i was strong enuff to go thru, i cant, i wanna ..

A levels, cannot concentrate. die. you just wanna promote, win lor.
felicia !! im now going thru what yu r going thru ? WHY CANNOT ? WHY SO LITTLE TIME ? OIE OIE OIE .. WHY LIES all the sudden ? crap.

2006-02-02T19:21:00.000+08:00

have yu really wunder about the world ?
it's a miracle, i guess (:

was randomly reading felicia's blog, isn't the world just like that ? why do we blog, to notify the entire planet, even the men frm the tribes in africa, about our daily routine and, probably some interesting topics to .. start discussing. forums set, discussiong board set, blog set, all for human beings to tell the rest of the world, their story.

i have a story, do you ?
wish me luck for my econs test tmr, i dun wanna be the first to retain for failing my common t. uhmm.. i'm really wondering alot about myself ~yawn

2006-02-01T17:03:00.000+08:00

AFTER 2 MONTHS
i finally got my SIXTH phone, samsung SGH-E760. haha..
with motion technology, mp3, wateva wateva
you know, two months with my classic nokia 3315, i've survived. lol

happy new year everybody, when everybody is shopping with their angbao money, i bought it all with my phone, i feel ... old, i worked for what i want. uhmm... gorgeous phone, you start loving beautiful things.

2006-01-31T13:33:00.000+08:00

Chinese new year
so new so chinese .. aww
Yesterday, after visiting kyle's place with too much pizza and wine, i earned myself alot of rashes. im allergic to some weird ingredients in beer + wine ...gosshh aint a good thing, why cant i be allergic to examination papers (x
i din gamble at all this new year, obedient girl!

headed to indochine with felicia at clarke's, fabulous place with awesome atmosphere to dine in at. you can hardly see yr food without the only pathetic candle on the table. then we headed to attica for some dancing, we chilled till 12am, with 3 old guys ? eeeks. that's the time when human beings starts shaking their ass. felicia is the hottest dancer, aparently the youngest there. it's filled with angmohs & real adults .. ahaha fun ! yesterday marked the first clubbing xperience i had with fel. obviously not first time clubber.

2006-01-29T00:33:00.000+08:00

GONG XI GONG XI!
happy chinese new year!
i know it's like no one will be blogging but collecting hongbaos all the way YEA! the aim is just to attack all married people ! ohh, new year ! no need to rob or steal, money just come rollin in xD with goodies tt are so gonna make me fat n die with stupidness. LOLX on the condition of no vulgarities for days, we aren't supposed to be superstitous but everyone r paying debts n ending cursing .. LOLX miracle of new year. people still owe me a hundred, man, i need a phone ...

cousin just sent my family back home, had a good reunion dinner, 2 rounds of steamboat, im getting ready for the SHOCK to see on weighing machine -OOHX- but i hv sore throat, how to kill all the bak kwa, egg rolls, yu sheng ... oh man, i dun care !

my granny is so weak, only 30kg, i just wanna wish her health this CNY (:

my classmates had fun yest ! school concert was alright but with the 5 choir's cuties, i'll nv find CNY songs boring (: so cute, we went BEACH yest ! cool, had fun in the water & esp. during taking photos ... so fun ! we ate a good dinner too .. my class is cool. & we better get fulleton this prom 2006. 05A06 is voting on fullerton althot it's 100/per pax. i dun care ! chinese new year ! happy !

2006-01-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

uhmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmmm uhuhmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmuhmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmm uhmuhmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmmuhmmmmmmmm uhmuhmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmmm uhmmmmmmmm

A LOT OF WORK, alot of shoppings and dates to accomplish =\ im only a human with 2 hands and half a brain. gosh, so much shopping for me. oh man ! ICON at bugis is GOOD !

like i've said, i nv wanna think too much about life. sob* & to sijia, episode 18 WAS GOOOOD ! (x (x

2006-01-19T16:12:00.000+08:00

random post
after two days of intense shopping and days when i had hardly 5 hours of sleep, my engine broke down this morning, 38.2 degree cool. to me, i see myself as an old engine, trying to fight my battle in this world. pointless life again, if i would to give a conclusion. i seriously dont feel good at all right now, seriously. the sense of awfulness just sinked into my mind and screwed me upside-down. crazy stage of life, i cant eat much, only trying to indulge myself into medication, WTF ? i'm tired physically, mentally & perhaps .. spiritually (:

yesterday
went raffles city to accompanied jo to get caro's gift, watched 'heirloom' with jim, home. im blind. yes, i am.

2006-01-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

HALF-BAD DAY
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On my beautilful journey to my lovely place of education, i overslept on first bus, dashed back to the bus stop i missed, catch my second bus & got school late. Well done, perfectly with the william-hung-looking DM to lecture me early in the morning. PE was living hell. skip skip, the entire class beauties fell asleep for an hr when ABDUL WA-HA started his W.A.R. talk. had 2hr of chinese yakkings`` with genius me, completing a protrait of geisha (: iim going to get valeria and michelle's photos (pretty girls), i'll draw em in my most skill-ED skills (terrible ang-moh). Me, jasmine, kaixin, the 3 little shorties then share an umbrella on the way outta of sch, cute DRAWFS !HEY with the tall bunch of girls strolling behind us.

Me and jieying con't our unfinished shopping journey (continuing on sat), starting with good meal at mos, then levi's then bodyshop. yest, me mc jy joa kx SHOPPED lyk crazzze .. SHOPPING! oh well, JY's attractive la ~

once we entered newurbanmale, this complete idiot sales assistant (btw it's augustine) came and says that he need to conduct a survey since i've purchased the jacket & bag. however, he con us, it was just a joke -.- & was like wanting JY's no. on the reserve list than MINE! FINE, i know it's damn fcukin obvious (kidding), and aug was like uttering nonsense too. similar frequency with jimmyongsoonkuey :b ohh, & jimmy's younger brother, that stupid marcus, scolded me with so mnay vuglarities (for fun) ... he's ... like so young yet so vuglar. MEAN BROS .. yes! movie tmr (: (: grins*

project runaway's top winner is JAY! God is just.
Desperate housewives won at golden awards.
that means God is fair too

2006-01-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

l i t t l e apple dolls (x
ohh i had a BAD day, other than joleen's recommendation of good restraurant.
i went fcbc for service today, aww.. awkward, stupid joleen, nicole came too. i slipped my way and fall on my bum when i enter the mrt, thnks to my friction-less slipps. after my good service which i forked out so much money, a fat ass woman stepped unto my poor fragile slippers and spoiled the entire thing. i'm left one-footed with slipp ... thnks to her, i went town & get something real cool n cheap from m)phosis. then we went to this real kawaii restraurant at clarke quay, cheap & YUMMY jap ramen, i'll bring everyone there xD then we went kinokuniya ... read for A's ;)

i went Felicia's, we had fun fixing the skirt she bought for me ! pretty, pretty short too... she's gonna wear as a tube due to its shortness, lucky it looks fine on me. then we did personality test with jimmy (on the phone!) .. accompanied by his lame jokes -.-

im left with nth but a sense of emptiness around me, maybe i just need to be alone to think about some things .. perhaps so .. ?

2006-01-15T01:41:00.000+08:00

www.littleappledolls.com
my favourite!
THEY R CUTE
i mean it (:

10am SAFRA mt faber: i swan 25 laps
2pm Great Eastern Hans: Study with Felicia, we met the worst cashier yu ever see, i gave her $5.50 worth of coins includin $2 of 10c coins. Fcuk her attitude =\
7pm Great World City Mac
9pm GV Grand - in her shoes -
storyline is good like derailed but i've been watching 2 long dragggggy show, kind of disappointed. i need to catch geisha soon, i hope it rock my ass man. probably elizabethtown .. the proof ..

2006-01-12T19:12:00.000+08:00

Roasted duck rice for DINNER -woohoooo
i just had a terrible period of physical training (my bones r crackin) & im so gonna fail my FIRST TEST (Econs) of the yr =\ i studied for 4 hrs yest w/o coming online la, de world is unfair. My cls is getting fun with more love and concern, i really hope no one will spoil it, yea, YOU ! NO ! NO ! There's no new year mood, everyday is work, work & more work! okay im off to study for grog, may i fail my 2nd test of the year too =|

2006-01-10T15:30:00.000+08:00

Work on my list:
1. Art coursework proposal
2. ~~Art 05 hols hw~~
3. Thurs 12/01 econs test
4. Fri 13/01 geog phy test
5. Mon 16/01 geog human test

can someone just kick my ass, it's just the second week of school, fcuk it! i just downloaded so much songs, gosh, like oasis sing - let there be love. what's with a levels. i watched erzuoju the moment i woke up today, @#$%&@$# damn NICE! my mummy thought she died, why the hell am i weeping like some retards. too much to say, i'm living in a drama life. OOHx

2006-01-10T00:29:00.000+08:00

at the end of each story, many come into a perfect good ending. wellz, this means that i'm not dying yet and my perfect story is yet to come. i dunno why i'm talkign about this.
first day of second week, i spend my breakfast at macdonald's before i sneaked back into school for lesson. CHEER* great start for the upcoming crazy week, i'll be like having more & more surprise tests BOOO* my clique and i are mabbe gettin this awesome-looking pair of levi's shoes together. we're gonna rock pjc again and behave lyk a bunch of lesbians. i'm all ready for spotcheck, i will be wearing pants to school on wed, get high socks underneath and tucked my shirt right in. whose gonna catch me, esp my new f-up principal. i feel lyk dying my hair PINK- to scare her off.

i prefer smarter guys now. YES, a lot. lucky my school dont haf. all stoooopid. what do yu mean by saying, yr voice is nice but it doesnt really suit yu. DUMBASS

2006-01-08T19:38:00.000+08:00

i just wanna blogged for the sake of blogging!
i'm feeling so furious now!

HELLO? i rushed home just to make sure someone is online, and what happened was that yu're missing since.. it's been 20 hours .. awww BUT why am i panicking, why am i worrying, why am i being anxious ? Dead meat, that's me. i say "NOOOOOOoooooo", studies is my mian focus this year. well i'm gonna watch tv ltr & waited patiently for .. and for my episode 16 of erzhouju. i am not dumb, i know what's download. yu people just like to treat me like a fool.

i went fcbc service at EXPO, how far can it be ? i was almost crawling half-dead by the time i reached the entrance. it's pouring thru-out the whole journey. service was good (: then i met joleen and cindy at citylink for thai xpress. YUMMY we ate 5 plates of food -piggies
where are yu now ?? M.I.A ? =\ =\

2006-01-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

i guessed i did blogged alot today.
too bored, bleahss

raining cats & dogs these days, i cldnt go out for a swim nor running, i need to get rid of my beer belly\ tummy .. just that spare tyre !
i went national lib to look up for felicia, studies for my geography test and fell asleep. had Hans for dinner after 8 hrs of suffering in the cold. meet up with my ex isetan colleges for supper.

food + beer + the girls = fun ;)

then someone called meanwhile, awww* but pangseh me again .. ooh im trying to be holy again (service tmr!) i need some quick cash without working, MUMMY! she's unwilling to gimme money for new yr's clothing, she said i bought too much clothes over the hols. WTH (tot it's more than 10 pcs) but unfair, xin nian xin yi fu right ? ass, i believed i will gain her sympathy soon xD i'll cry cry cry..

2006-01-07T14:18:00.000+08:00

i thought the new blog skin was SOOOO cute. im not heartbroken lah, c'mon girls, we got to get a life. there's plenty of gays outside. AHA

2006-01-07T13:36:00.000+08:00

Maybe the school's choice was right for me, of not furthering my J2 maths, it will be a wiser decision to con't economics (: i not stupid, just FAIL maths. that does not make me a loser.

the first week of school was cool, i like it, i think i can make it for the BIG GAME at of this year. everyone is encouraging one another for the aim of gd results for A's. no one is sleeping except for GP lessons. Thnx for the fabulous mistake the sch clerk make, i attended maths lessons instead of econs for a week. WTF econs will rock my ass !

Yesterday was the first time i've been to the north-side area of s'pore, thnx to les partner- Jimmy. That stupid gay, who steal fel's and my no. from the newurbanmale members' records, LOL (he's probabaly readin my blog) we watched 'derailed' in causeway point, and wass funny was tt Jimmy blushed and started covering his eyes when the sex scenes was 'too much', too much of jennifer aniston's BOOBS. can yu believe it, a typical ex-boy school, acs(i) *impossible, who nv stead, held hands, kissed a girl. nvm, he's cute, my les partner then treated me to pasta mania .. & i sent him home ?? and took 19 mrt train stops from woodlands to tiong bahru HOME. lucky tt idiot accompanied me for an hr plus thru his phone call. man, he really makes my day thru his lamest jokes ..

i pretend that i am invisible in school, i cant hear nor see

2006-01-04T18:54:00.000+08:00

OOH
1st Jan
surprise ! THERE IS a big surprise in this new year.

study study study, A lvl A lvl worx ! ooh, im so prepared for school, i got so much new stationaries, bag, jacket -_V~ but same old brain. im quite lazy to blog wor, uhmm, wich me luck in days to come (:

2005-12-27T01:40:00.000+08:00

My friend told me potatoes kill your brain cells, is that pooPOO who told me that ?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO more ! it just remind me of the size of DA FAN SHU from lao fu zi
, not again ..

ehh, uhmm learn to learn from from your setbacks, mistakes, see what u have done in the past year. if not for every path that i have decided in the past, i will not end up here. i will start to love jacqueline morreeee.. if she's prettier ! NEVER ! ahah !

i think my christmas was perfect, perfect place - esplanade, all the way inside, under the xpress-way, perfect friends, perfect mood (: (: we're happy BUNGGSx ~
we wrote our wishes for 2006 on wishing list, may we be capable to accomplish em'
i wish for a complete NEW year.

may everyone have a belated merry xmas & a HAPPy new year,
im just gonna spend off every single cent of my pay - YESSS !